I feel amazing!!!

This is turning into quite the journey I have been changing my life for the last 20 days and in the process I have lost 12 lbs and 10.5 inches and it's only the begging. I can say all my clothes are getting to big :D and I just feel so great over all a lot of people have been asking me "what's your secret?" well..the answer is there is NO secret! I have been eating better food and eating SMALLER portions. I have not drank soda (former mt.dew addict) and drinking at LEAST 8 glasses of water a day. I go to the gym every other day and in between I go play outside and go on walks with my family. Any way when I first started I took a picture yesterday I put on the same shirt and took another picture and I was so surprised!! Here ya go :)

The jean shorts look so ugly but there are way to big and I rolled them 3 times to keep them up lol. Have a great day!!

WOOHOO

Down 11 lbs and 10.5 overall inches OMG!!!! Do a happy dance!! It's only the start!!

Been awhile

I haven't been updating..I'm sorry :( I have lost almost 10 lbs I'm .5 shy lol I am feeling great and everything is going really good. My eating has been under control and I have been meeting my calorie goals everyday :)!!
Things I'm looking forward to..
wrapping a towel all the way around me
smaller jeans
bye bye knee pain
bye bye heart burn
not being short of breath when taking the stairs
smaller boobs :o lol
SEX!!


That is all I can think of lol I'll add more later..bye

one week minus 6 lbs

Wooohhoo I lost 6 lbs this last week! Good bye 6 lbs I hope to NEVER ever see again!! I'm so happy I could scream :)

Ugh..

I hella caved last night not only did I skip the gym (went on a walk instead) I ate a snickers, 1 reese's peanut butter cup, and a few gummy worms. :( I'm trying to not let it get me down and drink a lot of water I am also going to go to the gym tonight and try really hard not to cave into the evil fat girl in my head screaming for a damn cookie. But other than that life is great, I can't believe how much I'm falling in love with Jason I feel like he is truly my best friend and I don't have any idea what I would do with out him! My kids are growing so big and smart and I can't believe Zoie is going to start kindergarten soon, hey are going to asses her for full day kindergarten in august and she is really excited. I took these yesterday and they turned out great! ♥

Just say no...

I feel like binging...I'm sitting here drinking water and thinking about my fitness goals but in the back of my mind all I can think about are the cookies on the table. Hopefully if I sit here and write for a few minutes it will go away I didn't go to the gym today but we did go out into the field and played soccer with the kids for awhile earlier and spent the day with my family it was a lot of fun. I think I'm going to go take a shower then watch some tv with my lover I'm going to keep telling the cookies no!

quick entry

Ive lost 5 lbs total :) I'm seriously so happy ok off to gym!!!

Minus 2 pounds..

I've lost two pounds and that is great! I went to the gym on Tuesday and Thursday  and I have been able to control my eating very well! We are going into the weekend so it's going to be a little harder when company comes around and such, I just need to be careful! I am so proud of myself for getting back on the horse now I just have to hold on for dear life I want this so bad! I want to buy and fit into my smaller jeans I want to be able to buy clothes from any where. I would love to be able to buy a bra that is not special order but we will see about that, hopefully these puppies shrink with the rest of me! I love how supportive my husband is being, he really deserves to have the skinny wife he married back I am just so sorry for letting myself go! I feel like if I could go back in time that is the one thing I would change, I wouldn't just eat like a cow because I was pregnant. I also really want to start teaching the kids about eating right and exercise because I don't EVER want them to have to fight this demon, if I can teach them now and give them the tools hopefully they will never have to figure out how they are going to lose 100+ lbs like momma. Well anyway off to go get my day started and clean up my always messy house. Much love to anyone who took the time to read this even if I don't know who you are it means a lot!

It all starts here

I'm not really sure where to start so I guess I can tell you about myself, I am a 23 year old stay at home mom with two kids, Zoie who is 5 and Keinen who is 1 I have a great husband who is truly my best friend.

 I have been diagnosed with manic depression, GAD ( generalized anxiety disorder), and I am also a compulsive eater and severely overweight. I have been struggling with my weight and over eating for a very long time since I was a child I remember sneaking food once I remember sneaking a whole box of granola bars and eating the whole box, I remember it getting really bad when I got pregnant with my first child Zoie I didn't think about what I ate or how much because it was "ok" because I was pregnant. After I gave birth it hit me, the weight didn't just fall off it was all there and I was very upset over my "new" body I ended up putting on a whopping 80 lbs during pregnancy. I was able to maintain for the most part my body weight after birth but I was slowley adding on the pounds thanks to my lack of self control and the excessive amount of overeating. When my daughter was two we started to try for another child along with trying I started to exercise  and attempt to gain some control over my eating and weight. I lost about 15 lbs and then got pregnant with my second child in December 2009 again with the eating whatever you want because your pregnant. I ended up gaining another 50lbs and since I gave birth I have added another 20 lbs on top of that. I am on a mission to change my life. I no longer want to be overweight I want to be normal. So here goes nothing, I am going to try and go to the gym at least 5 days a week I am also attending an over eaters anonymous meeting on Saturday. I will try and update as often as possible as I climb this mountain to gain health and control over my life.